I'd like to know the answer, no matter what. I think the worst part -- for me and for everyone -- is having no idea what the real situation is.

[Head ducks over his work, as he tries to cover his own disturbance. He doesn't even know what he'd do if he could escape. It might depend on exactly that that meant. Even if all his theories are wrong, and he could return to a Europa that had a space for him...would it have a place for him? Or just some air to breathe and dirt to stand on while waiting for one of a gazillion factions to remove him from life, this time permanently?]

If I didn't go home...

If...

Would you...

[He falls silent, stitching fiercely.]